Anticipation

Sometimes, I look at Cole and I get that hugely-anticipated-night-before-Christmas-feeling...wondering what he's going to be like when he grows up?  Sometimes, I just can't wait too see what his little face will look like when he's grown and matured.  Sometimes, I can't wait to see what he's going to decide on for a career.  Sometimes, I can't wait to meet who he will choose to marry. 

But then sometimes?  Sometimes, I feel like I can wait a very very very long time...because all of those things mean he will grow up. 

And I'm just not that ready to lose my little boy yet.