Every week I get an email in my in box from What to Expect When You're Expecting.com - they give me handy little tips, have a section for new dads, and even give me my weekly to-do list for getting ready for baby.
This week? Packing my hospital bag! Hmm... perhaps you're thinking what I'm thinking... what could be so difficult about packing a hospital bag? I pack overnight bags all the time. What could be different? But as I placed my duffel bag on the bed and stared at its gaping emptiness, I felt completely overwhelmed.
Maybe it's because this is the last bag I will pack as simply a wife/daughter/sister... from every day after I use this bag, I will be known as a mother. An all-encompassing title that is a huge step.
Maybe it's because that, like in every part of my life, I want to do everything right. I want it to be perfect. I want the first minutes, hours, days, weeks of my son's life to be perfect. I just know that I will forget the one thing that will intrude on this perfection.
Maybe it's simply because I am a chronic overpacker...pair that with my husband (whose Boy Scout training tells him to "Be Prepared"), and we are a couple that always has too much stuff (like a roll of toilet paper in the trunk of the car at all times in case of "emergency"). I have mental images of us walking into the hospital, loaded down with suitcases, duffels, pillows, and bags.
What if I forget something? I mean, we live a whole 3 minutes away from the hospital! It's not like we can just pop home to get something we forgot!!
So, in goes chapstick, hand sanitizer, a swimsuit, and diapers into the bag. But wait! I check online for a checklist, and everyone says not to bring diapers, since the hospital provides those. So out go the diapers. Ok, I consult the checklist - toiletries. But, the only problem is that I kind of NEED my toiletries from here on out, so I can't exatly pack those yet. Ok, next. Camera. Also need that, can't pack that yet. Ok, next. Going-home outfit for baby. Don't have that yet (yes, I am unreasonably picky about this topic).
Now I'm starting to get frantic. The bag is so big and empty! I... must...fill....the...space!!!! So I start scanning the room, looking for items to throw in - a sweatshirt! Sure, I'll need that! Oh, a belt! Of course we'll need that! Dog treats! Why not? Throw 'em in! War and Peace? Yeah, the checklist said a bit of light reading may come in handy!
I stand there glaring my ridiculously overstuffed bag, and I realize something. This baby is coming out whether I bring a Boppy pillow to the hospital or not. Everything will be fine. If I forget something, it will be ok and it will not ruin the baby's life.
So I do what every good mom-to-be would do in this situation. I empty everything out and put the bag away - I'll pack when I'm in labor and ready to go to the hospital! Nothing like a bit of procrastination to make a girl feel better!
You're too funny. This entry made me laugh. No worries Mandy. Everything will be perfect, whether you have the right booty without the left booty or not. Hugs! I can't wait to see photos of your little man!!!
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